I've been sober for a little over 18 months, and I haven't been very active in the program. (I feel awkward because I have been going to meetings in my area for almost a year now, and I didn't get involved right off the bat.. so I don't know how to really edge my way in..) I know to get phone numbers and everything, but I haven't called anyone in so long that I feel like I'm.. apart, you know?
I have a sponsor and rushed into that.. I feel connected to her, but mostly when we talk it always ends up being about her. I don't have a strong connection and I want someone to help push me. It's been suggested to me that I get another sponsor, one in particular.. But I also feel guilty about leaving this sponsor. (Totally my issue)
I've been dating another alcoholic/addict in recovery since May and we have a very good relationship, sometimes I feel like he's the one that's been there for me the most and the realest sponsor that I've had.
Mainly, I just wanted to get all that out there and see it in black and white. I know what is the solution to my uncomfortablity, and I just need to do it. I guess I just wanted to hear a little feedback on my POV, because I know it gets skewed very easily by my own mind.
On another note, is anyone located in the Bryan, Texas area, or just Texas?