What does Powerless over alcohol mean?
Step 1 We admitted we were powerless over alcohol -- that our lives had become unmanageable.
For me, what it means that -- I am powerless, on my own, to stay sober (I need help) -- that I cannot manage to stay sober on my own! (I need continued help!) -- to manage to STAY sober!
When I was new in A.A., I thought that "Powerless over alcohol" meant that I was only powerless while drinking. Thatâ€™s only part of the deal. I learned that for me, powerless over alcohol means that I am powerless over alcohol when sober!!!
If I were only powerless over alcohol while drinking... the solution to my problem would be simple. Just quit drinking. I wouldnâ€™t need A.A., the 12 Steps, meetings, God, or a Sponsor! However, my real problem is alcohol-ism.
I am powerless over the next drink while I am sober, which means that I will ALWAYS have the next drink if my alcohol-ism is not being treated
The mental obsession, the physical craving, or the emotional compulsion, will draw me to the next drink just like the hidden energy in a magnet will attract iron to it.
Restless, irritable and discontented without a drink is only part of my problem. There have been many times that my life got so good and I felt so good that I went out to celebrateâ€¦ just a tiny little bit.
On my own... I am doomed to drink again. But, "with AAâ€™s help" I don't have to take the first drink.
Through AAâ€™s 12 Steps, my obsession to drink has been removed.
The physical craving will not come back unless I take the first drink. And, the emotional compulsion to drink was removed through the 12 Steps. And, I was able to make a conscious contact with a Power Greater Than Myself.... that could restore me to sanity, and provide the power that I need to take the actions that will lead me away from the next drink. Thatâ€™s great! I must be recovered, right? Wrong! Thatâ€™s what the alcoholic part of my brain would like me to believe. Recovered only means that I am sober today.
When I take Step 1, I am making a full unreserved surrender... It means "I'm licked". I lost the game. Now, I better find a new one. My old tools, methods, plans and techniques to try and control my drinking didnâ€™t work. My old design for living didn't work. There were times that I could get soberâ€¦ once, I stayed sober about six months, on my own! But I couldnâ€™t stay sober. Sooner or later, against all my better judgment and experiencesâ€¦ I would pick up a drink again. And, even though it has now been more than 22 years without a drink for meâ€¦ I will drink againâ€¦ if I stop doing what Iâ€™m doing that keeps me from picking up the next drink.
This is why the First Step is the most important step. I will not be willing to take the other eleven Steps with the "vigorous action" that they require, nor will I be willing to surrender to a Higher Power.... if I'm not doomedâ€¦. While sober!
First, I took Step 1 -- and now, I take Step 1 -- Daily.
Thatâ€™s why I go to A.A. meetings. In the A.A. meetings I remember what my problem isâ€¦ alcoholism, and what the solutions is: AAâ€™s 12 Steps. The meetings do not keep me sober. The meetings remind me of what my problem is and what the solution to my problem is. Itâ€™s the DAILY practicing and living the 12 Steps, and maintaining and improving on my conscious contact with a Power Greater than myself that keep me sober.
If I stop going to AA meetings, my head will forget what my problem is and it will forget what the solution is. On my ownâ€¦ Iâ€™ll come up will all kinds of problems other than alcoholism, and solutions other than Alcoholics Anonymous, the 12 Steps, and a Power Greater than myself. And, thatâ€™s very dangerous for an alcoholic of my type.
It would also be extremely dangerous for me to believe that I could substitute the Internet cyber-meetings for the real live A.A. meetings. There is no substitute.
Now, sober... I have everything that I was looking for in the bottle... peace, joy, contentment, serenity, confidence, happiness, comfort, a new attitude, a new outlook on life, a design for living that really works, and I do not have to fear....... as long as I keep doing what Iâ€™m doing!
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