Hi all
How are you? I hope you are all happy, healthy, sane and sober!
Well, as suggested, I am going to share my day with you.
I woke up this morning to some continued medical problems, that were getting worse. I was doing all I could...actually, to be totally honest, I was being a stubborn brat....trying to avoid the hospital. Then I realized that my air conditioner was broken.
Now, it was 116 out yesterday...and its only going to be worse today. So of course I had to do something about it.
My dog...some of you may remember he had a minor procedure done a couple weeks ago. Well he healed from that, but then friday ended up breaking his back paws! So he cant go outside to cool off in the pool cause he cant get wet. So even though it felt better outside cause of the breeze...that wasnt an option.
Well, I called to have the AC company come out. Then I started...yep you guessed it...a pity party.
I didnt want my moms help, I just wanted to cry. I kept telling myself 'Hell, I have been sober 41 days and all this s@@@ has happened to me and it didnt happen when I was drinking...what the hell?' That was just some of what I was thinking.
I also am not working this week...so...my job is such, no work, no $$.
See...all of this revolved around money..and the stress of my medical stuff. I was using every possible thing I could to avoid the hospital.
There is someone who I love dearly, and I respect, admire and trust whole heartedly...I called him.
He was very understanding, and patient, and kind. He talked to me...I wont get into all of what was said...but I realized that life doesnt revolve around me...and get this...God (or HP) is NOT out to punish me!!!! Its a novel idea I tell ya. But once you can wrap you head around that...everything else seems to get easier.
My phone call was, what I thought to be, rudely interrupted by the AC man showing up EARLY!!!
Naturally I needed to replace the whole unit. Before I get to that, let me also tell you this...suddenly...I kid you not, my medical issues...just stopped! It was amazing because they have never done that on their own.
Now the AC guy came in to talk about options and what not. I had him talk to my mom because I decided at this point in time, I need that kind of assistance from her. The new unit is $7200. So after all that was said and done....he asked me "how long do you have?" and then proceeded to pull out my BB out from under another book. I told him '41 days today'. He said "great. I was 4 years as of Friday" He also proceeded to tell me that he saw it (mind you, it doesnt have the cover on it...its just the blue book) when he 1st walked in.
He gave a 4K discount of the unit. Isnt charging for labor, gave a temp motor to last till Saturday when the new unit can be put in, and then gave me a free 4 yr membership for my yearly maintenance.
He sat with me, and talked. Read some things to me from my BB. He told me he prayed for me this morning. I was confused. He said he prayed that he meets someone today that he can help. I wasnt suppose to have a problem, but I did, and I was his 1st visit!!!
He also gave me the phone number of a lady who does an all womens meeting...every monday night...and its not at an AA location. Its at different peoples houses each week!
He helped me so much. But he hugged me and thanked me for helping him!!!
See amazing wonderful things happen...and they do only get better.
I feel like my dear friend that I talked to this morning helped me to at least be able to get to the point to have an open mind and see the other side.
I called my friend back and gave him the update. I was in such a better mood.
Stress is a trigger for me. But...I know that I have lots of people that love me and want to help me. I just need to be willing to let them. My mom helped me, the AC guy helped me...and my friend helped me. He gave me strength and courage and peace to face, what I thought for sure was going to be a day of hell.
I can get through it...may not get through it the way I think I should..but I will get through it the way I am suppose to.
Thank you for letting me share
Heather
