Thanks, Agent 99.
I would really appreciate if you would add this to the "Higher Power" topic. Exactly what it's there for. How did you work through you HP understanding during your 1,2,3 steps? What kind of thought processes did you go through to get there? I hope you'll consider writing your story there.
I too came to a very eclectic understanding of HP through entirely different circumstances and with a result pretty much juxtaposed to yours if I read right. Nevertheless, it's not my understanding that works for you, but yours is the only one that's important. Right? That's the point.
I applaud you for coming to grips with it for your own sobriety.
I had a recent experience with a newbie who said he was offended by all of the profanity around the AA groups. I told him it's up to him whether he lets that close his mind to everything to the point being made just like people who let religious words do the same.
During the conversation, it came out that he just said he was offended bewcause someone else had jumped him for using profanity in a personal situation and wanted to know how that guy can get away with it. He said, Now religious words I really have a problem with." I'd later seen him disrupting meetings with controversy and starting doubtful arguments here and there.
The deal is that he is looking for any reason to say AA didn't work for him.
"There is a principle which is a bar against all information, which is proof against all arguments and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance - that principle is contempt prior to investigation." - Herbert Spencer (Appendix II, BB pg. 568)
God, reborn, faith, grace, spirit. you added "blessed" to my list. Atheists and disgruntled religious people can both have trouble with words. During my attempt at agnosticism, I redefined all of those words to their secular definitions. Still works for me on a mood-by-mood basis. Sometimes I'm intelectuallizing because God gave me that ability and sometimes I'm in spiritual mode. The two are melding the way I understand they should. They are not counter-productive, but complementary.
I also am not religious. People think so because of the God I claim. UH uh ... The HP who sits beside me fishing ain't the one in church unless I take Him there. Happens my "church" is any AA group talking about Big Book sobriety. Woops ... I better qualify that "church" is a secular term for people congregated for a common purpose. Oh, no ... congregated means ... oh ferget it. No, no, no, I didn't equate AA with religion or a cult (which people also erroneously limit to off-the-wall religions)
Anyway, thanks for your thinking. Very helpful to me today as I reinforce my personal relationship with my HP today. He/She/It/They IS, after all, the working, indispensible ingredient in this 12 step program.
And OH YEAH ... those little "miracles" are HUGE. Paying attention is really cool! Moments if intense gratitude and "You DO have it under control, doncha, HP !".