by DebbieV » Tue Sep 01, 2009 5:39 pm
I remember when I first got sober and was doing the steps, I showed up to start writing on my 4th step with my sponsor and pulled out a blue pen. He said "what is that? Is says put it down in black and white not blue and white, get a black pen then I will help you get started" I thought What the hell? Does it really matter what color pen I use? I didn't understand it at all...but I learned this valuable lesson I still use today. I call it "DO IT ANYWAY"
There were many things I didn't understand when I got sober, I the way I was living my life was not working and I needed help to learn how to live a life of a sober human being. So I learned real fast to DO IT ANYWAY.
I think for me the clue to all these "rules" for AA is to have a sponsor who can guide you through what rule is best for you.
I have heard not to make any life altering changes in your first year, but I moved 2000 miles away from my family at 6 months sober and it was the best thing I ever did.
I waited 11 months and 3 weeks before I went out on my first date sober and during that time alone I learned to love me and others.
I lead a meeting as soon as I did my steps.
I can't agree with Dallas more, some of the things I did and still do in AA irritates the crap out of me, but thank God I had a sponsor who was a hard ass at times and said DO IT ANYWAY, because in my life sober today I have to have discipline and the only place I have ever learned it is in AA.
Debbie