Hello carbonunit, welcome to the site.
I understand about the Higher Power and Faith deal.
A few weeks ago I started watching some videos on YouTube of this guy named Eckhart Tolle. When I first saw him and heard his voice for some reason I wanted to laugh. I was judging him by his appearance and how he was saying some things. But, after I discovered his story, where he came from, how he got to where he got to, and after I listened to what he had to say... I really got hooked on listening to him. He seems to have a way to say many of the things that I think about -- and he has a profound way of explaining it in a way that I understand. It makes me feel like he's speaking what I've been thinking for many years.
Myself? I can't even adequately describe myself. So, if God is bigger than me... then how could I ever adequately describe God?
I know there is a God. And, I can experience God. But, I don't have a clue as to how to describe God. He (and, I use the word He, to put a name on it, probably because that's how I started doing it many years ago)... is so much more of a Power Greater than myself... I would resign to pretending that I actually know something about Him, other than He is.
When I was told that I had to find a Power Greater than myself -- I picked one that was so great -- that I'm like an ant looking at a fighter jet... I can feel and experience the vibrations of the jet... and I know something is there... but, all I know anything about is my little ant hole, and my brother and sister ants. It (God) is so big that it defies explanation.
For most of my life that has bothered me. I used to have serious conflicts over it. And, for a while, I didn't want anything at all to do with God -- because it seemed as though, to me, that He was revealing Himself to other people... with precise details of information... and I would get uptight because I would try and try and try to use some logic with the details... and wonder why "Well... if we're all God's kids... then, why does God favor some kids and let them know so much about Him... and me, He treats like an Orphan child and don't tell me nothing?"
And, when I would hear people tell me "God spoke to me..." I would get all ticked off at God, because He wasn't speaking to me like He was speaking to them.
Then, I discovered that this isn't a God problem. And, it isn't a Dallas problem. It has no meaning to me and it's none of my business what anyone else says or experiences with God as they understand God.
If I go to others... trying to get and use their definitions... it doesn't do anything for me except to confuse me.
So, I stick with my own understanding. And, that's good enough for me.
I believe there is a God. And, I believe that God cares about me. So, what else do I need to know?