dbarnes180 wrote:Twice I have asked my sponsor to let me resign ... twice I have been told to fulfill my commitment. Twice I have agreed to do so.
Thanks for your message David. I appreciate you and your sharing.
It reminded me of what I was told when I first came to AA. "Your AA commitments are your commitment to your sobriety. If you don't have commitments... you won't stay sober. And, if you do have commitments and don't keep them... you won't stay sober".
It's the "work that I do" that gives me the opportunity and privilege to have another sober breath.... If I'm not doing the work that He has chosen for me to do... then, why would He have a desire to help me?
Perhaps, the spark that will kindle the fire of service work in your group, will end up being one of the residents of the treatment center... that gets sober and stays sober because you went there and carried the message of AA to them. At least, we know this much... while you are there carrying that message... I'm reasonably sure... that you will be sober and that your life will continue getting better!
The message of commitments and service work is the AA message. Bill and Dr. Bob, were careful to let their new recruits know ahead of time... that "work with another alcoholic" will be imperative to their sobriety.
Of course, Treatment Centers is not the only place that we carry the message. Hopefully, we carry the message daily in all of our affairs. And, we are always willing to reach out, when any alcoholics hand reaches out to us, regardless of "where" we are.
There are two things that block me from God. My thinking and my actions.
It starts with my thinking. Whenever I'm thinking about me... I'm not thinking about God. And, so far... I've been unable to think about me and think about God at the same time.... I have been able to think about me all of the time -- but, I've never mastered thinking about God all the time.
And, when I'm thinking about God, or someone else, as God would want me to think about them... I'm less likely to offend them or harm them and end up having to make amends to them!
(I haven't mastered that yet, either).
For me, I suppose that one of the keys that has helped me to stay sober, is to take great effort to have some sort of "conscious contact" with the God of my understanding. Prayer and meditation is "actions" to help me improve my conscious contact... but, kind of like our book outlines... "there is a necessity for actions and more actions"... and that leads us into the work, the life, and the Chapter, of "Working with others."
Thanks to all of you -- for helping me to keep in some sort of "conscious contact"... because without you... I can't do it on my own.