Hello daily reprieve! I sure enjoyed reading your message. It sounds like you'd be a great sponsor to have! My very first sponsor in AA -- was a lot like you. And, he saved my life. I will be eternally grateful for him and for his love, and tolerance and patience... in putting up with me! It seems as though he was perfectly what I needed at the time. And, I seriously doubt that I would have made it without his help. The mentality I had at the time -- would have never put up with the kind of sponsor that I have, today.
I just didn't seem to have it in me -- to have enough discipline and structure in my life -- to be able to have the kind of sponsor that I have now. I have to work real hard to develop the discipline to do what I was directed to do -- and my Ego required a huge smashing -- to be able to take direction!
I had been sober for about seven or eight years -- and I hit a bottom in sobriety. I started spinning out. I knew I wouldn't make it. God put the perfect sponsor in my life that I knew would be able to help me -- but, I also knew that if I got whimperish, or argumentive, or didn't follow direction precisely -- he would drop me as fast as a hot potato! And, that's what I needed.
I am so glad that AA has such a variety of members -- and a variety of sponsors -- that it leaves no excuse -- for a guy or gal to not be able to find just the right person that they need for a sponsor. The variety option sure saved my life!