Thank you for sharing Bob! I think my name or the names of many more of us... could have been at the end of that same message that you shared!!! I understand! I had the exact same experience.
One of my old problems -- that's still a problem that I have to watch for is: I'll suit up, show up, do the work, go to meetings, fellowship.... my life starts getting so good... that I'll slack off of what I was doing that caused my life to get so good! "Oh! I'm not that bad today! It won't hurt anything to skip (this or that) today! I'll do it tomorrow!" Then, comes tomorrow... and same thing... over and over again... until I end up with a wedgie that creates a super-sized pain in the butt!!!
And, while that wedgie is in the butt... it sure makes it hard to put one foot in front of the other foot to get my butt back to where it needs to be... that it's only been by the Grace of God... that I didn't drink!!!
The great thing is: when it comes to our mind and we become aware of it, we have a choice... continue what we're doing and watch where the other shoes land (usually on our head) ... or get our feet moving and our butt back into gear!
Sometimes, regardless of how long we've been sober or how good it got... we can hit an unexpected speed bump in the middle of a road that wasn't supposed to have any speed bumps in it! And, we'll be traveling so fast -- that the unexpected jolt will take us out!
This is why I believe "One Day At A Time"... doesn't have as much to do with drinking as it does to do with "the actions we must take each day... one day at a time" that will keep us sober, happy, joyous and free!
In a way, I think it's a blessing that we have to keep working and doing. If we didn't -- we'd get half-way through the work, maybe stay sober... but our life would suck!
My life sucked for too long! I want the good stuff and the good life that I can only get by using the same tools that I have to use... to stay sober!
Don't beat up on yourself! It won't help. Just laugh and learn and change! It's easier to change when we're laughing and learning... instead of beating ourselves up over the same mistakes that each and every one of us make!
Best wishes for you!