It's nice to rant and rave sometimes... it makes us feel good for the moment, but it rarely does much good for us, for the long-haul.
Actually, you've made a good start. You've made a list of who your angry or resentful at, what they did that made you angry or resentful... which means that you have two columns of your Resentments Inventory partially filled out for you!!!
Now, you just need to look at how it affected you, what your part was in it, what you did to set the ball in motion, what the exact nature of your character defects are, and what you could have done differently.
I know that it sucks to hear that!!!! But... that's how it works.
We take "our inventory" instead of the "other persons inventory."
The neat part about doing it that way, is that we get to make "our amends" instead of having to "make their amends" as a result of taking their inventory.
Don't you just hate me by now?
I would rather that you not like me, and allow me to say something that might help you stay sober... and discover how to live happy, joyous and free... regardless of what anyone else does... Instead of have you like me, and me not tell you the truth... and you end up drinking over it.
The bottomline is... you've got to focus on your recovery... not his recovery.
You've got to allow him to discover his Higher Power, while admitting that you are not it.
Sometimes, the more we try to "save" someone else... the deeper into the pit we push them.
Let go... and grab on. I know that sounds strange. It is strange. But, it works. Let go of your way of doing things, and grab on to the 12 Steps way of doing things, and everything will work out all right.
As long as you keep doing it your way... you're going to keep getting the same results that you've always got... which is the same thing.
If you want the music to change... change the record!!!
Now, it would be a good idea to go over to www.step12.com/step-4.html
and download the inventory instructions and the 4 inventory pages....
Go ahead and finish them up while everything is fresh on your mind... and go from left to right on the columns...
When you're finished... let me know. We can set you up with someone to talk it over with....
Take care... and you already know this... but I'll say it again... "KEEP COMING BACK!!!"