Wow, I have been sober all these years and thought it was because I admitted that I was powerless, believed no human power could relieve my alcoholism and that God could and would if he were sought... now I find out it is all beacause I was just REALLY REALLY ready.
Because you've been sober all these years -- Even though I don't know you, or your story, I would put my money on the bet that... "if" I did know your story... I would discover that:
You were REALLY REALLY ready..... TO
Admit powerlessness... came to believe that no human power could.. and that God could... and would... "if" you were REALLY REALLY ready..... to seek Him.
And, because you were REALLY REALLY READY... you did just that you sought Him!
And... this is why you've been sober all these years!
Am I close?
I know that in my own experience, I could not and would not... surrender, until I was REALLY REALLY ready to surrender. I kept getting back in the ring and fighting another round... kept getting beat up until I was really ready to admit to anything -- and do anything -- just to find relief!
I was so REALLY REALLY ready... that I would have admitted that a monkey's butt is blue and sought to kiss it for relief -- if that would have been the length I had to go to!