Dear god can you help me
Can you stop the pain inside?
Can you stop the pain that's killing me?
Please stop it or let me die.
I am tired of living this lonely life
I am tired of the guilt and lies,
I am tired of pretending that's its all okay
When I look in the mirror through these blood shot eyes.
I don't really know what happened
I don't know how it all went wrong,
I used to be so confident
I used to be so strong.
I would sneak little sips through out the day
Then the days turned into nights,
I would laugh and smile and joke a lot
But soon all I did was fight.
I hate my life but I just can't stop
It seems like drinking is my only friend,
Occasionally I'd have moments of clarity
But I would always start to drink again.
I don't understand why I just can't stop
Maybe I don't really want to quit,
Or maybe it's knowing I failed again
And its something I can't admit.
But I know one thing is certain
If I keep drinking I will surely die
So I ask you God please help me,
Relieve me of the pain inside.