fletch wrote:it stresses me out just thinking about going sharing and being around people i dont know i am not confident in a room around people i dont know and i know you only speak if you want to but i feel a pressure to speak and i dont like speaking infront of groups of people.
Which stresses you more:
1. Going back to the meetings. Or...
2. Knowing that you're going to die if you don't?
If you don't stay sober your drinking WILL kill you -- regardless of how many hobbys you have or had.
Imagine seeing your casket being laid into a hole -- and what friends and family you have left -- standing around weeping, sobbing and hurting. Then, hearing one of them say softly... "God. If he'd only went to a meeting instead...."
We all understand failure. AA is the only place I know of that failure is a requirement -- other than, maybe death... We've got to fail living to die. And, in AA we've got to fail living -- to re-qualify to live.
And, the truth is: It's your Ego that's stressing you out -- in regards to going to the meetings -- which you know -- that if you go and do what you need to do -- you, too -- can live -- sober.
The Ego is the thing that keeps us thinking about ourselves. Keeps us wondering stuff like "what will they think about me?"
Who gives a crap about what "they" think about us? Let's live man. Let's live!