Welcome to the forum PeaceJoy! It's great to have you here with us.
Sorry to hear your mothers experiences. That's got to be horrible to go through. Also, I relate w/ you, as to being a caregiver. I did it for 13 yrs, with my mother and it sure wasn't easy. I admire you -- I sure couldn't have done it at seven months sober! And, it was difficult on many occasions even with a few years sober! So, my heart and thoughts are with you. I understand.
I read your other messages but was holding off on a reply until I got to this one. I sensed that I was not reading them in the order they were posted.
And, I'm only on my first cup of coffee!
It was a late morning.
Periodically -- I, too, have a drunk dream. And, I sure don't like it when I do. I take them as reminders and alerts. They remind me that I'm alcoholic and one drink is too many and a thousand would not be enough. Also, I use them as motivators to check my behavior, my thinking, any new activities that I've started, and any new friends that I've made. I also use them to help me seek more spiritual progress, humility, and a closer relationship to the Fellowship.
Thanks for your sharing and participation on the site! I've enjoyed reading from you and I look forward to reading more and getting to know you.
Best wishes for the best of the best of the best for you!