Hi ladies! I'm Chris and I'm an alcoholic. Sober 7.5 months. I told a little of my story in the "Introductions" thread, but will give you the gist of it here. I was sober 19+ years and relapsed in 2001. As you can see, by me having only 7.5 months of sobriety, it took 9 years to get back to the rooms of AA. Pride, shame, guilt. They are killers.
Please... no need to test the waters if you're sober. I tested them for you, and it doesn't get better, only worse. Much.