Well, I've been sober for 2yrs now. I am married with children. We both are alcoholic and have partied together from day 1 of meeting years ago. We are also addicts...(I think it's funny to have to keep that separate from "alcoholics" since I'm addicted to alcohol too.) Alcohol is what took me down in the end so I identify as alcoholic.
My deal right now is that he is, just now after 2yrs of me in recovery, beginning to rebel against me and my sobriety. He showed support for me in the beginning when I quit drinking by not drinking in our home. This is where we always tied it on good towards the end of my drinking days. So long story short I am finding myself face to face with the alcoholic demon within him when he is drunk (which has been more frequent lately). I was lucky in the beginning because I was able to apply the principles of the 12 steps towards our "alanon" relationship. Maybe it was the "pink cloud" effect IDK. I wish I could just walk away from this and get out on my own but we have kids and I'm a stay home mom who is working on achieving my education which has been put on hold for quite some time. I have NO money so I can't just leave. His family has money and they will take them (my kids) from me easily because I have no money to support my babies with. I just need to hear from someone who may have been in or who is currently in my situation. Even just some words of encouragement from you who may feel compelled to share experience, strength and/or hope with me. I don't want to drink although the thought has been fleeting along with maybe taking some pills or something. I know that's not the answer but I am in so much pain right now. I've been to a couple alanon mtgs but to me it's just a bunch of whiney asses....lol. I like solution based mtgs. So here I am whining about my crap! haha.
I am praying more than ever lately and it seems the more I pray the more intense he becomes towards me...weird. I'm thinking God (HP) is working on something with this but I don't like how it feels. I know.....I'm trying to run the show aren't I....UGH.
Thanks for letting me share