Thanks for that Toast. Ya it is dang uncanny.
I was in and out for the last 18 years of my 29 year drinking career ( I started young
Today I am grateful that I was so deflated when I came in this time that I immediatley got a sponsor and listened to most of what he instructed and just did the steps. Took me about 4 months and it has changed my life.
I had to get over the hump of knowing it all becuase I had worked through the steps before but as my sponsor was so kind to point out I must have missed something
Today I am 692 days sober but whose counting.
I'm not the type of person that takes to instructions well when I have my own idea but fortunatley I was so crushed that my deflation was followed up immediatly with surrender (actually my sponsor says I was still fighting for about 6 weeks he's probably right
It could have been fatal
I'm also grateful to have the attitude today that I like to try and grow a little more each week becuase I know how fast I can slip back to old behaviour and that will eventually lead to a drink for me. To finally have the experience that I needed is precious. A smart alec like me can miss this so easily.
I also have had one opportunity to be struck with the urge to drink and be saved by the cosmic bell. Dang never know when that can happen.
Grateful to be an alkie
How else could I have availed myself of this
Today when I see someone come into our meetings that remind me of myself I try to spend a bit of face time and tell my story and suggest they just keep and open mind and give it a shot. I am not the type of person that can come into AA and just do meetings and not do the program.
Ciao all and have a good weekend.