Merry Christmas everybody! I had a pretty good day today. Christmas eve was hell though, honestly. I wanted to drink so bad. I was up and down and all over the board. Finally my drunk mother told me I needed to go to a meeting.
There was an alcathon and I went for about 2 hours. I was so wanting to drink. I was whining to myself about how I'm not normal and can't have a drink on Christmas eve like normal people. Then I thought it through and thought wtf good is A drink? I never have A drink. A drink doesn't even give me a buzz and I just get drunk. So I decided that A drink wasn't the answer and I'm still sober. Whew! Thank God today was low key and I'm not having the cravings. It was nice to wake up before the kids this year. I started the coffee, started the Christmas music and made cinnamon rolls. I wasn't hungover and that was a real Christmas miracle!