I know I'm going to be all over the place with this one, but I want to give it a go.
I once asked a priest, "Is it wrong to drink and do drugs?" He said, "Well, drinking and drugging alter your perception of reality, and reality is where God is."
So, where is God for me, besides everywhere?
God is in my heart and in my life (page 25 big book "..the absolute certainty that our Creator has entered into our hearts and lives in a way that is truly miraculous.")
Reality, for me, is God living in and through me.
My part is to learn, through prayer and meditation, what He would have me be and do.
I was in full flight from this in my drinking days! (Blaming my kids cuz I was sitting in the drunk tank!
Reality is who and what I really am : a child of God, an alcoholic.
It's perceiving, experiencing and re-creating through the Power of Love, the heart of God.
BUT I WAS TOO LAME
TO GET UP AND ANSWER THE DOOR.
I THOUGHT IT ROCKED
TILL IT PUKED AND PASSED OUT ON MY FLOOR.