WoundedButterfly wrote:I'm not even remotely aware of the way I feel... and then I start to realize I do not WANT to be aware of what I feel.
One of my buddies in the program told me this after we lost our son, "The great thing about being sober is you get your feelings back. The bad thing about being sober is you get your feelings back."
Keep on feeling what you feel and allowing your Higher Power to bring healing. One of my favorite verses in the bible is Psalms 126.
"When the LORD brought back the captives to Zion, we were like men who dreamed. Our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy. Then it was said among the nations, "The LORD has done great things for them." The LORD has done great things for us,
and we are filled with joy."
(The captives in this verse are the Israelites and they were most likely returning from Babylonian captivity
I've felt a lot of feelings since I've been sober that I would have tried to escape from when I was drinking and drugging. I've also felt joy, peace, and a sense of contentness that I never knew was imaginable. What I find most amazing is that in some of my "worst times" since becoming sober, the God of my understanding has poured out joy, peace, comfort, and strength upon me.
I'll take my feelings, the longer I am sober the better they seem to get.