My goodness, what a night. The meeting started and there was standing room only. My girls, their father and Uncle, girls I used to work with, freinds I met in the program last year and even freinds I just met this year at my new groups came. There was standing room only but no son.
10 minutes into the meeting I heard someone come in and turned around and it was him. Just as I have been imagining it for the last couple of weeks. I ran to him and hugged him to death and couldn't stop crying. Of course, everyone new he must be my son and cried with me.
When it came time to accept my medalian I could hardly speak. I started by telling people what I had chosen to have written on my medalian which was 'choose life' and went on the explain that at the time of my last drunk I was loosing everything, my kids, my husband, my health and was determined to end the suffering. Then my son called and said 'Mom you got to get help, you are all I have'. So I booked myself into the hospital and then started attending AA meetings. That's when I had decided to 'choose life' and that's what the program has done for me. Given me my life back.
As I looked out at everyone, still crying of course, I thanked each and every person there. There was so much love in that room last night I don't know how I could have ever felt alone. I wanted to bottle that feeling so I will never forget what unconditional love really feels like. It really does work if you work it and it means working it everyday. And the days that 'I just don't feel like it' are the days I should work even harder.