I was just informed by my wife of 19 years that she is in a different place in her life now and is ending our marriage. Not totally blindsided since we have been separated for that last 3 months although "I" thought that maybe a little time apart might lead her to be willing to work on us.
My "wants" didn't materialize and now I'm hurting, hurting a lot.
This is a big loss for me and brings up many insecurities and fears.
Here's the amazing thing however.
We were able to have an honest, emotional conversation about this, without blame, resentments and retaliation. This is the miracle of this program. She has her own program as well, which to me makes it all the more sad, sad that she and I can't continue together on this program path.
We were able to talk about this naturally applying principles we have learned. We were both kind and loving to each other.
Doesn't make the pain go away but it sure feels right to have handled this in a kind, loving, and honest way. (Miracle of working the entire program)
My heart is broken. I accept this as part of living, feeling and being awake and will have to walk through the grieving process.
I know that with the help of this simple program I will be ok. My needs will be met.
I am hurting today and needed to share.
John
