I remember one night, when I was a few months sober -- and I called and woke my sponsor up at 3 am in the morning. I was having a panic attack.
My problem was: I observed that I wasn't thinking about drinking!
I thought if I wasn't thinking about drinking and I wasn't fighting off the next drink -- it was a sign that I was about ready to get drunk. I took it as "the insanity of the next drink".
Needless to say -- my sponsor (and his wife) were not very happy with me calling them at 3 am in a panic attack! Let alone, for my panic to be over "not thinking about drinking!"
I'll never forget hearing his words to me: "That's what's supposed to happen! It means you've been doing some of the work!"
I've been sober for nearly 25 years, and I get so happy at times -- that in a meeting, people will act as though I'm the odd ball -- being sober and happy at the same times.
It's hard to believe the number of times that newer people in sobriety will smirk with something like "Watch out! It's a long fall when you fall off that pink cloud!" My reply? "I wouldn't worry about it, if I were you -- I've been on my pink cloud longer than you've been sober!"
It's amazing -- the high number of people in recovery -- that still don't know or understand that "happy, comfortable and sober -- is what really does happen when we do the work!"
Thanks for sharing.