One of my favorite lines in the big book is, "Do not be discouraged."
I figure if the book tells me not to be, then I just won't.
Of course I can always find plenty of things to be discouraged about if I set my mind that way!
But I decided early on to set my face in the direction of sobriety, and take whatever it gives me and give whatever it takes. Go to any lengths, yes?
It's not a yellow brick road, but what it gives me is EXPERIENCE. This experience, good or bad, is the great gift I get to share with others. If I isolate, I'm hoarding it and it just rots on a shelf. Sometimes I think no one wants my gift, but you often never know how what you share may help someone who needs just what you have given. I know this to be true. People have told me that, what I thought was some dorky thing I said in a meeting, is something they hold onto every day to give them hope. God uses us in ways we can't fathom!
Where are you from that you're coming to the US?
Since you have a sponsor, have you begun taking the steps with him?
"The point is that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines."
Sounds like you're doing just that.
And that's not a miserable place to be at all!