I have been Blessed with many years of sobriety. My refusal to follow the directions has resulted in 5 relapses, over the last 29 years. The last one started in 2007, and ended on June 14, 2010. Each one was worse than the one before. I experienced every single horror our Literature speaks of. If those relapses are what it took for God to get my attention, then that's what it took. Humiliation finally humbled me. I know what it's like to be to sick to die. I never have to be that sick again, by God's Grace, as long as I follow the directions laid out in the BB. I am Blessed indeed, to have picked myself up, by God's Grace, and crawled back to AA. I believe with everything that's in me, that we all are amongst the ranks of the chosen few. Else, how could those of us that relapse live to come back? Obviously, God has something more for us to do. I have "recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body." I am not cured of alcoholism. To God goes the credit for my sobriety.