I understand on that one, too. The legal problems I was facing. However, one day at a time -- things began to work themselves out much better than I could have even imagined that they would. And, I owed a lot of money to a lot of people. Most of the people became willing to work things out with me. The problems that I thought were going to be the worst turned out to be the one's that worked out the best. Most of the problems were in my head. When I'd see a mouse turd in my life -- I'd end up turning it into a mountain and start thinking I needed a poll vault to jump over it!
That was all nearly 25 yrs ago. And, I remember ALL of it just like it was last night. I don't want to forget what it was like when I was going through the same kinds of things that are hammering you. Or, I might get some ideas that are not too smart! Heck, I couldn't survive having to start all over again with being newly sober again!
It does get better. I've seen it for myself and for thousands of others that I have personally met over the years. None of us could have made it on our own. But, we had each other to help, and nearly each one of us eventually discovered that there really was a God, that was helping us and doing for us -- what we could not do for ourselves.