I fear at times i am growing in rigidity.
I want my AA from the Book. The program is so optimistic and empowering as outlined in the Book.
I live in a big city and the program is pretty strongly represented in the meetings I go to ... but there is still a lot of parroting of non-program information that just is so discouraging to me.
-I didnt get sick over night I wont get well overnight
-I wish you a slow recovery
-You can't sponsor- you only have 8 months
-At five years you'll get your marbles back and at 10 you will know how to use 'em
-I am addicted to Words with Friends (scrabble on iPhone) --- this proves I am an alcoholic (Yes I heard that a few weeks ago)
Is it rigid to question the old timers why what they say contradicts the program in the Book?
Is it rigid to ask people to be humble enough to not re-write the literature.
I believe I am recovered (at 8 months) , not cured, and have a daily reprieve based on my spiritual fitness. I refuse to say I am in recovery for the rest of my life. Lack of power was my dilemma, the step provided me a direct experience with the higher power, I feel reborn and empowered and responsible to try to not share my opinion.
I don't know.
I hope I am not cocky.
I know that of myself without God I am nothing.
I TRY to be tolerant and loving. I pray for God to remove all the defects that stand in my way of this.
The new format of the forum looks great
Have a good day all!