Glad you feel a lot better. I like riding bikes, too.
During my early months of sobriety -- I had made a list of all the things that I enjoyed the most -- when I was a kid.
I was/ I am, one of those kids -- that skipped and dropped out of childhood, and had to grow up too fast. So, I decided that I was going to go back and do the things that kids do, like: riding my bike, going camping, going to Disneyland, playing at the beach, etceteras.
And, I decided to add to my kid-list -- all the things that I wanted to do, but had never done.
Outside of the 12 Steps, and socializing with other people, the kid stuff was probably the best thing I ever did for myself. It's kind of like when we do a gratitude list -- and how good we feel after doing it. I began to genuinely appreciate myself and life -- in a positive and healthy way.
Then, when I acquired the ability to be more responsible and accountable, I got me a puppy!
Having a puppy has been probably the best thing I ever did -- outside of having a sponsor. They've helped me to become more emotionally stable and taught me to be more tolerant of other things and beings, and to not take stuff in life too serious.
Wow... and now? I've got a couple of grandkids -- and I'm fully qualified to relate to them and to show them how to be a kid!
During some of the times that I got extremely disturbed at big people... to the point where I was dangerously way over the line at being angry and disturbed w/ them -- where I was likely to punch one in the nose (or worse)... and, it seemed like the 83-88 Formula was not kicking in fast enough and thorough enough -- I'd LITERALLY go back w/ pen & paper & do a full blown 4th Step Inventory on the individual person... precisely following the instructions for it in Step 4.... which is what we're encouraged to do in Step 10 (when one of those really in-depth reviews becomes necessary). Of course, I don't do one of the full blown Four's every day... because I rarely get to one of those extreme experiences.
The one really good thing -- about getting really ticked off at someone (for me) is: it FORCES me back into those Steps into a level with much more depth and weight to it. It helps me keep practiced and helps to keep me in shape.
I thank God, that I don't have to do push ups!
Can you imagine having to drop down and do 500 push ups for every time we get angry?
I'll bet that would change our perceptions so much that we'd never get angry again!