Why do I share?
I share at AA meetings because I’m a member not just an attender. I care about meetings and have respect for the people who went to the effort to find us a room and grateful for other AA’s turning up to give me a meeting to go to.
Sharing at a meeting in front of a room full of people changes my mood. Just like going to the bar did but this time i get a lift not a downer. When drinking I’d go into a bar quite happy and come out morose. At meetings i can go in weighed down with the cares of the world on my shoulders but when i share something, anything i always come out a lot lighter. If there's a newcomer in the room i can tailor what i say to reflect my circumstances when i was in the same situation which also reinforces my gratitude for what I don’t have in my life today. If i didn’t say anything at a meeting I’d come out feeling the same way i did when i went in and that’s the last thing I want!
As long as i don't share to impress, to wound or to entertain i always feel much better after i speak. To me that’s the miracle of AA.
I also share because I still need my medicine. The rush of blood to the head that comes through plucking up the courage to speak truthfully about how I feel today works wonders for me and that’s real change for this alcoholic!
So if you’ve never went home from an AA meeting with your heart signing with gratitude for today and tomorrow then your missing something truly miraculous. It’s the biggest high I’ve ever had in my life!