Hey Tonya!!! Thanks for sharing! I always appreciate it when you take the time to share! I get a lot out of your messages!!!
You reminded me... that for many years before A.A., prayer had been a big part of my life, too! I was always praying "God!!!! Help me get out of this one!"
Then, after I came to A.A., before I started the 12 Steps, and while I was going through them... I often prayed "God!!! Help me get out of this one!!!"
Now, that I practice the 12 Steps... I sometimes pray "God... how did I do this again? How am I going to get out of this one? God, what can I do to take care of this one... and how can I stop doing it!!!"
I've discovered, that when I'll discipline myself to praying and meditating a couple of times a day... and hopefully, remembering to ask something like "God, what would you like me to do, today?" ... my days get much better. I've discovered that when I will do that more often, I usually have less of a need to be praying the prayers of "God, help me get this one fixed!"