918gma wrote: But if and when you willing to do the footwork, except that you don't know what the foot work is, then what.
Hey Kathy, sorry to hear you're in a bad place. I'm not sure what to say, since you didn't share anything about it, other than being in it. I hope it isn't too bad of a place.
For me, when I refer to the footwork... it's the 12 Steps. It seems like the longer and more often that I use them... the more that gets revealed to me through them. The real task for me has been to continue doing them daily... even when the times are really good. That keeps me on course and keeps me clear-headed.
When I get away from doing my daily 10th through 12th Steps, everything seems to get out of whack for me real fast... and then I find myself looking for solutions outside the 12 Steps. I forget what my solution really is... and then I get confused.... And, then, when it seems like none of the actions that I'm taking are leading me to where I want to be... frustrated, I end up back on Step 1, using it on my sanity!
Then, once I get back up to Step 10, using it on my sanity... the fog starts clearing... and as I follow the detailed instructions on pages 83 through 88, the right answers and the right actions seem to automatically start flowing again, and my problem gets solved.
Please remember... I'm talking about me... and how it works for me... with no reference to you, and how it might work for you. The only thing I know about anything... is my own experience, and that's really all that I can share... is my experience.
In the middle of page 83, I'm reminded that "The spiritual life is not a theory. I have to live it.
The last paragraph of page 83, reminds me "If I am painstaking about this phase of my development, I will be amazed before I am halfway through."
While I still had amends to make for my Step 9, that paragraph applied to my Step 9. Once I was finished with my original Step 9, I've used the paragraph to refer to my "spiritual life." And, more and more I experience the sentence on page 84, that shows me the reality of "I will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle me."
Usually, for me, what lets me know that I've gotten away from living the spiritual life... is something happens... a circumstance or situation... and I become disturbed by it.
Once I've been able to become aware that I am disturbed.... that tells me "I'm off my spiritual path." (For me, my Spiritual Path, is the 12 Steps).
Some people use the 12 Steps to remove their obsession and insanity in regards to alcohol... and that's as far as they go with it.
I've tried that before... and when I did, life was like a ping pong ball bouncing all over the place. Yep. Physically sober... but kind of nuts with a bunch of up and down cycles in my life!
After I made a decision to apply and keep practicing the 12 Steps as a "Way of Life" and a "Design for Living" and my "Spiritual Path"... Life really started to settle down... and the circumstances and situations no longer produced the disturbances.
What I discovered about myself, was... when I'm disturbed... I'm kind of blinded as to which way to turn, what to do next, or how to handle situations. Once the distrubance is gone... which way to turn, what to do next, and how to handle situations... seem to intuitively come to me.
That's why, when I refer to "foot work"... foot = Steps, and "foot work" = "Step Work" and "Step Work" = "The Path".
I hope I didn't give one of those long-fingered (I guess that's appropriately said, since I'm typing rather than talking) answers to a simple question. (Of course... if I take a second look at your statement... and I notice it's a period instead of a question mark... maybe you only made a comment rather than asking a question). "Intuitively" I believe it was a question... now, I get to check it out!