Go ahead and laugh and joke as you will, friends. Be defensive as you want to. You all have that right. Bottom line is I love the Big Book as much as anyone else. And "To Wives" has got a lot in it thats helpful to me.
If you want me to "get over it" I don't know what you mean, and I guess it don't matter much what it means to me anyway.
Funny thing is, Dallas you asked everyone to give one idea on how to "modernize" the Big Book or program or whatever you asked that I thought I understood. That's just what I did. Then you and Mike jump down my throat because I said something you don't like. Well the thought wasn't directed at you personally anyway, so maybe it aint me who needs to be getting over anything.
I said what I see is it happens that way with people in and out of the rooms. I been around long enough to watch girls getting hurt, I been secretary of a home group and the whole matter of guys respecting girls by not cornering them alone and hitting on them became a part of group conscious. What you guys did in your wreckage aint for me to judge either. I need to keep my side of the street as good as I can, and that don't involve me taking your inventory. But when a new girl comes to me as "trusted servant" secretary and says she aint coming back because a guy had more in mind than getting well, I think then I have a responsibility.
Guys like you Dallas, tell me its my responsibility to make sure that when somebody reaches out that the hand of AA needs to be there. And that hand is supposed to be helping and not hurting. You might not care to hear my opinion on it, and that don't matter either. But if you don't think you want to hear my opinion, then don't ask me for it. And if you ask me for it, don't make me out to be some kind of moron because I don't see things the same as you. That's not what I do to you, and it sure aint my primary purpose to get under your skin and if it looks that way then I'm wrong and need to change something.
If you want, I'll just mind my own business and not say anything. But just like you guys, I'm not the same man I used to be either. I'll be honest with you if you ask me, and I won't hide my defects behind a smile and words that don't say what I mean. If I'm an idiot to one of you, I'm an idiot to all of us. So if I've been an idiot, please forgive me and pray for me a like you would a sick friend.
Here's one thing I learned. If I can't give you a blessing, then what I'm holding on to is hurting me as much or more than it hurts you. Partners, I don't have anything to get over cause I want my God to give you everything the same way He gives to me. I don't care if you like me or not, I gotta answer to a Power greater than me, and He teaches me I need to love whether I want to or not.