Ok, don't panic. It was completely out of habit and forgetting that I was an alcoholic. Here's what happened.
I use to work with a group of girls at Community Living and when we all went our seperate ways we would still get together every couple of months or so for dinner. The last couple of years I was busy drowning myself in alcohol and had lost touch so last week I called them all up to get together. To my surprise, everyone was very excited to get together again and I was welcomed back with open arms. So Tuesday night we get to the restaurant and immediately start chatting and catching up then the waitress came over to take our orders. And what did I do ??? ordered a vodka and soda with lime out of pure habit...didn't even think twice. When the orders came I looked at my drink and thought 'that's an awful small glass for soda water. One of the girls said I had ordered a vodka and soda OMG. I called the waitress back and told her I made a mistake, I meant to order just plain soda water with lime. She looked at me strangely. I told her I would still pay for the drink because I had ordered it but to please take it away. Wew. That was close. Then of course I had to expain to my freinds what was going on. They were all very supportive and the evening went on as normal. It's nice to know who your freinds really are. I went home that night and prayed that I never again forget that I'm an alcoholic. I can't even explain the terror that overcame me at how close I came. It's not like I wanted or even needed the drink. I'm just glad I've been given the strength to turn it away in time.
Thanks for letting me share
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