Paul, sounds like you've been doing some thinking!
And, it also sounds like you might be hu-man!
If I didn't look and think -- I'd probably be wondering if I was dead!
RC said it for me --
RC wrote: it is when we act on those thoughts - when we say things -- and do things that we get in trouble.
You hit me right on the head with that hammer!
Fortunately, for me --- that statement is so true! My head -- sometimes -- is constantly in motion. I can't seem to think myself into right action -- but, right actions can lead me to right thinking.
It's when I take action on my un-sound thinking that it gets me into trouble. I never got arrested for my thinking (than God for that! ) ... it's my actions that get me in trouble. I've never got into trouble thinking about saying something -- it's when I've actually said it -- that I got into trouble.
I was writing of this in another message yesterday. Wouldn't it be wonderful if Life gave us an "edit button" or a "delete button" that we could use -- rather than waiting to make amends!!!
You're one of the good guys, Paul. Take it easy on yourself!
There are way too many times when I'm too tough on myself -- and, I'll have the tendency to kick the crap out of myself over something that I thought or some mistake that I made. My sponsor tells me that I get wrapped too tight -- and, that I need to relax and take it easy.
I seem to experience these "extremes." I've sometimes let my head get in a bind that it demands that I be perfect -- and, my head doesn't even seem to think about the fact that I can't be perfect. If I don't watch it -- my head will start kicking the crap out of me over some possibility-thing that I didn't do but I might have done!
Without a doubt -- I'm sure that my head doesn't seem to like me! It would have killed me a long time ago -- if it didn't need my body for transporation!!!
Isn't it awesome -- that there is this thing inside us -- that wants to steer us in the right direction? And, this other thing -- that says "Easy does it! But, do it!"