My life is going okay today. No problems today to write about. So, Iâ€™d like to use this space to share how grateful I am to have my AA Sponsor in my life. He has taught me things and instilled in me the things that I have never been able to accomplish on my own or in any other way.
I'm going to read your mind again Dallas and say that I'm sure you feel the same way today about your sponsor as you did two years ago when you posted this. So out of date as it may be, I would like to respond and say a few things about my sponsor.
1. The importance of having a good Sponsor and following his directions:
That is so true for me, and so hard all at the same time, I don't know how and don't like to follow directions at all. I was blessed with a sponsor who takes the time, and sometimes it is a lot of time, to go step by step in teaching me how to follow directions, with more patience than I have ever seen in anyone. Has me do things I don't understand, little things like: make a to do list and put down 1.Get up 2.Pray 3.Read your BB. 4.Brush teeth 5.Call me 6.Go to a meeting. If you feel restless, irritable or discontent, go back to bed and start with 1 again. My to do list is a little different today, all but the first 3., because slowly I am learning to follow directions. I didn't understand why I had to do this when I first got a sponsor. Why do I have to do all this stuff that doesn't seem like it has a thing to do with staying sober? We do more than just stop drinking, we start living, and I didn't know how to do that without a Bud in my hand. So my sponsor taught, still teaching, me to put one foot in front of the other, even if they are baby steps, every day, and to never let up on the actions
2. Structure and discipline:
Oh good God I had no structure or discipline in my life, I think I may have a little now, but not like my sponsor. The epitome of structure and discipline. You can see God working right before your eyes, sometime it feels like you are listening to God himself. Man I am in awe... that's the deal for me, I want to learn all that I can, so I can become the same way, in my own way and someday pass it on to more and more people.. So I have to follow directions to learn how to be structured and disciplined. I could not have ask for a more kind, loving, big book teaching, hard-ass at times, push when I need it, let up when I need it, Sponsor if God would have chosen for me. (and I do think he did) Has sat on the phone and saved my life, let me cry until I couldn't cry any longer, told me I was not stupid, when that is all I could feel about myself, got me to believe if I worked this program, there isn't anything I couldn't do: Go back to college, have a career and be happy, be sane, be sober, be free forever...IF I FOLLOW THE BOOKS DIRECTIONS, So I try and today life is better than it has ever been, I give the credit to my sponsor.......yes all of it, because now I have a God, I know how to put one foot in front of the other, I know how to pray, I have done my steps and continue to do them daily, I have tools to use when I let myself start thinking too much, I understand God-reliance instead of Debbie-reliance.. Because I am being taught by a wonderful sponsor.
Many thanks to all the sponsors out there... I have said it before and I will say it many more times.....Much thanks to mine....and a big thanks to all of you who take the time to carry the message and pass it on.
Thanks for letting me take up so much room,