Last night our Chair person didn't make it to the meeting, so the wonderful sponsor I had told me to (sorry suggested
its all the same to me) that I chair the meeting, and it was with 'the kids'....the ones that the treatment center brings over. I feel such a huge responsibility to that meeting and meeting like those anyway.
I thought I was going to die when I first got up to walk that.... oh so long.... walk up to the front of the meeting. I sat down and rattled off some some stuff and the meeting started, I chose pg 25 in the BB, on "There is a solution" the nerves settled down ( I said my own quick prayer during the serenity prayer) and I saw these kids in a new way...I saw me in a new way....I already knew, that when I walk in the doors of a meeting, I want to be an example: of God, someone who has taken the steps, who practice the steps, AA, A lot of things. But, in front of these kids it really hit hard. I want to be someone they want to come back for, I want to make sure the message is the one Bill W. intended on me to carry..I want to be there when one of those girls get out and come to a meeting and say "hey, I remember you, I liked your message, can you be my sponsor?" Then maybe I can pass on the message that Bill wanted, to someone else, then she can pass it on...and there will always be someone in those rooms who stand up and says, yea, I will chair, even if they don't want to, because someone who was taught to carry Bills message told (suggested) them to.
What a gift last night was. And somehow, I am now the new chairperson for that meeting, I am chairing a meeting Wednesday, and I guess you could call it helping Tuesday night. This is such a powerful program. I'm truly blessed to be experiencing these things today....and feel such a need to pass on what was so lovingly given to me.
Pass it on.... has such a Strong meaning for something I here and see everyday.