Paul wrote:What I'm learning at the spiritual level is that it would be impossible for me to make amends in a situation like this. That's where God steps in. With a Higher Power, what was once impossible not only becomes possible, it actually happens "in the twinkling of an eye".
Yup. That's what turned me around in my beliefs about God. It was Step 9. It took my lack of belief... and turned it into real faith.
I always thought you had to have belief to have faith. Maybe, I'm the only guy out here that has and does this... but, my faith is not tied to my beliefs about God.
My faith came through actions... not belief. And, it was the actions of making amends.
The actions of making amends, and the actions of not drinking -- proved to me that there was a God who would help me.... because on my own, I couldn't do either one -- make amends or not drink.
He helped me and that caused me to have faith.
The reasons that I don't tie my faith to my belief is: my belief's are always changing. If they change on a day when I need the faith -- I'm screwed.
The one belief that doesn't change for me... is that my situation changes and I change through actions. So, I believe in taking the actions.... and that doesn't change.
I almost forgot what I was writing about... but, here it is:
If I stay child-like... I can learn, I can grow, and every moment is a fresh and new moment. It can help me to stay right-sized in regards to God, myself, others, A.A., and Life. I'm in no hurry!
It's good for me, when I can keep myself in a place of dependance on God. When I don't do that -- circumstances and situations will step in to keep me where I need to be. I've found, that it's much softer and gentler, when I can do it.