Good evening, all.
Please take this only as the suggestion that it is. I recommend that anyone who decides to check out the Tradition section of the Forum Index, back track through this thread from the beginning.
I look for activity in the Traditions...and I'm guilty myself, of not posting here more often.
Tradition 10, for me...was the very first 'thing' I could wrap my brain around after coming in to AA. I could take this tradition/principle, and apply it to all my affairs, with some practice. So, then...with an ounce of ability to grasp on to something out of the BB, I set forth and tried this tradition on for size, and use it. If something...anything
...was an outside issue
for me...if it was something I couldn't change, I would accept it; if it was none of my business, I would 'cop' tradition 10 by saying: this is an outside issue for me. What I began to discover, in doing this, is that some of the big ball of a tangled and mangled web was beginning to straighten out. By 'consciously' adopting Tradtion 10, I slowly developed acceptance
...I wasn't getting involved in situations, or conversations with people that would...have an effect on my sobriety
. I began to realize, consciously, that I truly did have a desire to stop drinking and stay sober...I already had this desire, out of desperation, however after I began to absorb this--what was happening to me...a true desire began to sink in. After more time, I realized that I was practicing Tradition 12--by practicing Tradition 10...which gave me a more firm footing with...STEP 1...acceptance, courage, and serenity. The steps...I was willing, but they were more--quite honestly...more words
...I found them a little overwhelming.
I admit...I was, at one time, one of those who...contributed a couple of Big Books to thrift stores...ironically with the cloudy thought that the books could help someone else. Wasn't for me; tried to read the next one, couldn't understand it; tried again--don't know what the reason was for unloading the next one...except to maybe say: I wasn't ready yet. Funny how I've never thought about that until reading thru this thread. The longer I'm sober, the more open I become...and the more that pops into my head that I've forgotten about. I've had a few Big Books come...and go, countless, for sure. THANK God ### I understand Him
...He didn't give up on me. I repeatedly was handed the key to what was wrong with me. It is interesting, though...how...even though I would ditch them...each time made a little more of a dent. I doubt I even opened the cover to the first one. I did ###
#### the next one. I'd read a bit more...or a different section...and I would give up. I suppose, in a way...looking at the BB, for the first, or second ###.,) is kind of like looking one-self in the mirror...the mirror of truth, unable to bear the facts of that truth. I do vaguely remember one thought that I had...that I was too young for this
. This "Bill-dude" seemed to be some old guy, who wrote a book...a long time ago, so the BB was old, too. Justify, justify, justify. "Loaded" thinking #######.
Anyway...I'd like to see what others have to say here. Been since Sept.14 since this spot has seen any action
Principles before personalities, kids,