When I first got sober, I started my search for a sponsor. I believed that since my issues were different than any one else's I need a certian type a sonsor. I was sure this was going to be a difficult and time consuming process. I had so many things to consider. I monopolized a few meetings asking the same questions over and over. Finally some gentelman, got a little frustrated with me and said, just pray, you'll find what your looking for.
So I did. Befor each meeting I said a pray to find the right sponsor, and it worked.
The first thing I found out was that I'm not any different than any one else in this program. I'm just a self centered garden variety alcoholic like any one else in AA.
I now feel that I would like to be a sponsor myself and start to give back what I've been given. I've had a few bites but so far no one has stayed with the program. I start to question myself as to why it's not working.
I have since given up that practice as well. I just go to meetings, trying to look act and feel like I have some thing some one else might want in thier life. The right person for me will come when my higher power needs me.