Thanks for that awesome message DebV, and thanks for the prayers Manette.
I so understand about taking electricity, air conditioning and Internet service for granted! I'll have to re-start doing my daily gratitude list and be sure those are on the list!
I have to admit that I wasn't a very good sobriety example... at least in my thinking... while the power was off.
My dogs kind of liked it because they got to go for extra rides in my air conditioned Suburban.
They'll do anything to go for a ride and are willing to ride in anything in any condition just to go for a ride! We would go for rides... and stop at Burger King on the way home to buy them cheeseburgers. (My little dog will only eat cheeseburgers at Burger King. I've tried all the other places and she turns her nose away from them. She's picky and spoiled! )
I kept telling my dogs that the a/c would be back on in the house, hopefully soon. (They stay inside most of the time when it's hot outside).
I acted serene when my neighbor from across the street came over to tell me that their power was back on (at least a day and a half before mine was back), and to tell me that the people on the next block behind us all had power.
(I knew because I had been driving around looking)... and I started my "me me me me me me me" thinking.
I was certain that the entire towns electicity was on... and only my house and a couple of others were "long forgotten." So, a few extra calls went in to the utilities "power out" phone number. My neighbor said that he had to bug the heck out of them to get his back on... so I took his advice and made a few extra calls.
My thinking started to get "this is why I don't like living in this dumb little town I've got to get out of here and be where civilization doesn't have these dumb problems that keep coming up over and over and over and over again!"
Even when I went to my nightly meetings -- I didn't say it out load, and direct and to the point, but there was an air of "poor me... I've been without power!"
Finally, after the power was back on... I found out about the unfortunate death and injuries that happened to some of the electrical work crew that was trying to restore electricity...
Talk about feeling bad? Real bad.
During most power outages I think about those dedicated guys working around the clock and how valuable their work is and how I appreciate them. But, this one time... when I had felt less-than grateful... and then learned of what happened to those workers... I felt really ashamed of myself for being so ungrateful and childish in my thinking. Yes. I did say some prayers for those workers and for their families and friends.
Thank God and A.A., that I get to live another day to change!
Last night I got to make some amends to help me change. I'll share about that in a different message.
Thanks for the opportunity to share.