Hey Susan, peace and love. I'm sponsoring my first bloke about three weeks now. It has been good for me and a little freaky but I'm starting to get my stride and I have my sponsor to talk to so freely giving.
This fellow reminds me a bit of what I was like when I still had to do more research so I pray that he doesn't have to learn more the hard way but I can also almost sense his inner self giving him a shot we will see.
My previous sponsor to the one I have now told me if we ever go to certain cities he will take me on a tour of the ones he also has had that didn't make it. I thank my HP for the shot I have had becuase I know that fear of death was not going to stop me from drinking only working the steps and then having the change begin to grow and manifest in my life.
I have set aside one of my suits from the days when I was a big shot that I have reserved for my first AA funeral. Now when I get dressed in the morning it is just one more thing that keeps this top of mind for me. I'm a surrender several times a day type Alkie. I'm grateful for AA, grateful for my morning meeting and grateful to have a sponsee that will help me keep sober for today. I'm forever reminded that I can not stay sober on yesterday's sobriety.
I told him I will visit him in prison or go with him to his divorce hearing or accompany his wife to his funeral whatever he needs if he decides he doesn't want what we have. My sponser says it great -- AA is a great program if you don't want it comes with a misery back guarantee
Thanks for all these messages guys. Glad I stopped by today