Dallas, all great questions... I think sometimes the writing style in the BB is a bit antiquated for some folks.
Adding to all that, my first sponsor had me write a list of all the things that I wanted to do before I died (the type of person I wanted to be, family, dreams, hopes, service to others, etc..) He had me write it as though the sky was the limit.
And once I was finished, he had me go back and cross off everything that I would never realize if I kept drinking. Talk about sobering...
Today, with a profound faith, I have an unshakeable commitment to LIFE. I take the good with the bad, just like everybody else. And I never forget the life I had before I got sober...which I truly wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.