garden variety wrote:... what you said about your trip to the hospital - to hold the hand and pray for a man who tormented you the most of all men. That brings tears to my eyes.
That could not have come from you . Berdie.
God bless you my friend and thank you for reminding me who is my "new Employer".
It definitely could NOT have come from the rage & anger filled woman I once was, that's for sure. I had forgiven some people of various things, but not to the same massive degree I was going to have to forgive him. When God set free those feelings of hate, rage, anger, hurt and pain from his past actions by helping me forgive, he opened the door for me to be useful to Him in trying to help ***name omitted*** see the light. He chose later not to see it.
I've had the opportunity to speak to him about AA, and offered to go with him to meetings when he told me he needed help when his wife walked out on him. Later I discovered it was only for the sake that she was also reading the e-mails and I guess he thought she'd come back if he was making an attempt. She didn't, he didn't and nothing changed. (If nothing changes, nothing changes...)
God bless you. I hope you have a great day.