Dallas wrote:BTW: I know that you're not cocky or afraid.... I was referring to me.
Well that is a nice thing to say, bro, but you give me too much credit. The bottom line is the same for me as it is for you - for me to agree these "things" affect you and not me would be being totally dishonest. "Arrogance" (or "being cocky") is a character defect that I ask my Higher Power to remove on a daily basis. It may not come to the surface all that often, but when it does, by golly, I'm "full-blown" cocky
And it is not a pretty sight - I tell you what!
Afraid? Me too! Heck I have a clinical anxiety disorder. But the thing I've learned is that being afraid isn't always a character defect. And God hasn't ever removed "fear". Being afraid helps me do a couple very constructive things: 1. To get myself out of harm's way - or to save my own life if I need to. In that kind of a situation, there is nothing that works better than fear. So don't tell me "fear and faith can't live in the same house together"! 2. Being afraid is also what helps me to seek a Higher Power on a regular basis, and it is one of the reasons that led me to find a Power greater than myself.
Sorry for the digression bro, but I think a lot of us have many things in common. And since I'm a "garden variety", I don't need to think I'm any different.
But now, heading into what might be a slippery slope, I did a little research and found an interesting pamphlet that is most definitely A.A. Conference Approved literature: "The AA Member - Medications and Other Drugs. I find it odd that I don't see this pamphlet hanging around meetings too often. But it speaks loads to the aforementioned incident that I shared with you.
The aforementioned protege' was told in no uncertain terms to stop taking ALL prescription medication and to "get honest" with themselves. Wow! What a scary thing to say to a protege' who had a team of physicians and professionals that were at direct odds with a handful of drunks who think "sobriety" means abstinance from any form of prescription medication. They specifically believed (read: serious error of judgement) that no one in AA should take any medication. This is a position that a minority of so-called "AA members" have taken in many locations.
The protege' literally "turned over" 7-8 prescription medications to the sponsor who literally "turned over" those prescriptions to the "grand sponsor". The "grand sponsor" immeidately flushed every single prescription down the toilet. Not only did the "grand sponsor" destroy upwards of a thousand bucks worth of neccessary medicine, the "grand sponsor" effectively introduced an incredible amount of toxins into the city of Akron's water system. By flushing the protege's medications, the "grand sponsor" also took away any chance of the protege getting replacement prescriptions because of the time restrictions on refills.
When the protege' went into seizures, lost enormous amounts of weight, became physically incapable of most movement, underwent violent migraines and digestive "distress" beyond description, after only a week or two - the protege', now in the hospital, could only say to the sponsor "please help me - there's something wrong". The protege' no longer physically resembled the person they once were, and the sponsor became very frightened. The protege' didn't know that their prescriptions were destroyed. The protege' thought the prescriptions were in the hands of "trusted servants" who would hold onto them until they were needed.
Friends, lets look at this outcome. It's a miracle the protege' didn't die. The protege' is no longer able to care for themselves, and was unable to get needed medicine into their body because the prescriptions were gone and could not be refilled again until several weeks or months later. The whole supply of prescriptions (some of them 90 days from mail order pharmacies) flushed into the Akron water system. Now the hospital can no longer manage their patient, so the protege' is sent to an institution. Can anyone imagine what that protege" must have been feeling or experiencing?
Well the AA apporved literature clearly states: "No AA Member Plays Doctor."
Is there any doubt why?
I tell you what, Dallas, I can't help but sometimes visualize getting violent with that "grand sponsor" or any other foolhardy drunk that thinks "no member of AA should take any medication" as mentioned in the pamphlet.
Just like when we were drinking uncontrollably, we were taught that our actions hurt innocent people even though we would rationalize "I'm not hurting anyone but myself". My actions while sober today still affect others. The things I decide can bring about pain and suffering to someone who doesn't really deserve it. If I let my ego force a position of "no medication for any member of AA", really the only thing that is "changed" about me is my breath. I'm not surrendered - I'm directing the show and putting the actors in their places and hoping that everything will go as I think it should go. And if it doesn't what do I say?
"Oh well, I guess that protege' wasn't "ready"?
My hope is that anyone who still thinks that they are the only ones affected by their choices and decisions - please don't kid yourself. Another hope is that "love and tolerance of others" will be the "code" in all our affairs. I also pray that if "Honesty, Open-mindedness, and Willingness" is what started the journey for anyone here, that H.O.W. is still part of the foundation of sobriety.
Or to say it in more simple terms: "Think. Think. Think."