CCS wrote:I think about what I am reading right now pg. 67 we asked GOD to help us show them the same tolerance,pity,and patience that we would cheerfully grant a sick friend .
Thanks for sharing CCS,
Your quote above IS the ORIGINAL and SUGGESTED prayer to be free of resentments. And, it does work!!! It's asking in this particular way, for God's will for me and the power to carry it out, using the formula of the 12 Steps. Often I've heard of people using a prayer in one of the newer stories in the back of the book -- about praying for someone else, even though we're told not to do that (in the Plan of Recovery). I tried it a couple of times and it caused a return of my resentments towards God, the other person, my self, and everyone else!!! When I got back to the suggested prayer on page 67, poof....... they were gone and I was free of them. So, especially thanks for sharing it. (If someone tried the other way... and it drove them back to the brink of a drink... they can be reminded that "there is another way." )
CCS wrote:my first sponsor used to always tell me it takes atleast! five years to start getting some of your marbles back (in fact on her 5th anniversary our home group gave her a bag of marbles along with her medallion) and it takes the next five to start learning how to use them
My first sponsor told me that I would be a newcomer for the first 5 years. When I got to 5 years they upped it to 10 years!! And, here 21 1/2 years later... my current sponsor still considers me as a newcomer! (He's got going on 50 years).
But, that's okay with me. I got rid of the desire to grow up too soon! And, I enjoy the extra time, care and attention!
Gees... "the grouch and the brainstorm" -- I have to keep an eye on both of them. On Saturday morning I woke up from a hellish dream where I was restless, irritable and discontented in the dream... I knew I was in a dream... and couldn't wake up! I talked to others about the dream (I've learned that for me, it's a good idea to share all that's going on with me). I've been doing my Steps, doing the deal... and have the crazy dream.
Then, I go to bed Saturday night.. and wake up Sunday morning... everything starts going backwards
and I'm nuts. Needless to say, I was making amends about every 5 minutes and cautioning others about my lunatic day. By the afternoon I was better.
In talking to others about it -- we uncovered a problem I've been having getting a good night of rest and sleep. It was suggested that I might be having a breathing problem when I sleep and I wake up feeling unrested.
It seems that regardless of how well I do the deal -- something physical can interferre with my progress. (Physical, Mental, Emotional, Spiritual). So, today... I'm working on a solution for my sleeping. (Help with the breathing).
I've found that if I don't look in all areas of my life -- I can have the crazies attack me from out of no where. I've also discovered... the crazies can attact regardless of what I'm doing. They just come -- and I have to admit and acknowledge them. (My imperfections). If I spend too much time on analyzing them, I'll end up thinking too much, and then, I'll be squandering.
Thank God and the Fellowship that we have tools that we can do and use to lessen or to deal with the negative outcomes.
CCS wrote:eventually with a pause and a few words with GOD ( whom without this program I wouldnt even be on speaking terms with) SANITY started to return!!
Another great Big Book solution!!!
Thanks for reminding me! Perhaps, I could have turned around my day earlier... had I just remembered that suggestion!!!
For me, that's why I need the mutuality of the Fellowship. (You, and the others in A.A.) , and our identification with each other... and our common problems, and our common solution! It's also why I need meetings. To get to give and to give to get what it is that I need to get.
Thank you! I appreciate you.