Nice to hear from you Gma...
You've been missed. I had just logged on to send you a PM and check on you... and there you are!
You're sober! You're alive!
Sometimes, when my sponsor asks how I'm doing, I reply with "sober and alive". And, he reminds me, that once in a while, that's all it seems like we've got! But, then, those times too, are sure to pass.... as long as we stay sober and alive.
As I was reading your post, I think you said "my decision was to not make a decision." Is that right? I've been there before. For me, sometimes, it's good. And, sometimes it's not too good.
I can think of many decisions that I made while angry... that didn't turn out too well. And, a few when I was in love... that didn't turn out so well either. So, maybe, for me, that means sometimes it's going to work out well or not so well... and a decision will be made regardless of what I do.... even if it's not to decide.
I'm rambling. Huh? Thanks for sharing.