I have so many legitimate reasons for my faith and reliance upon God
I didn't get to sleep until late this morning -- so I waited until the afternoon to wake up.
I was working on my house -- trying to fix problems that might have an effect on my eye problems. After I woke up -- my eye problems were worse. Kind of reminds me of "the way it was" when I was trying to fix my drinking problem... the more I tried... the worse it got. However, since God provided me with A.A. and helped me to get sober and stay sober, which to me, was a solution that worked... I have faith that in God's time, He will help me find the solution to my eye problem. It will either get fixed... or it will be something that I must accept. Right now, I'm waiting for the wisdom to know the difference.... Accept it or continue to work on it. So, until the wisdom is granted to know the difference... I'll continue to pray for the knowledge of His will for me and try to graciously and humbly wait for the answer. The answer will come -- if my house is in order. Well... that's why I keep working on the house!!!
It's nice to know -- that relying upon God, is not as stupid as it would look to someone like I used to be... when I relied only upon myself.
Isn't it just totally awesome that not only can we trust and rely upon a loving God... but we have so many legitimate reasons for our faith and reliance upon Him? He's been there with us and for us -- even before the foundation of the earth and the Universe.
You know that I'm not a religious kind of guy and probably the most un-spiritual of all His kids, but there is a little verse in another book that goes something like this, and it just totally amazes me: "I knew you when you were just dust particles on the ground."
And, another part that goes something like this: "... For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future..."
How much better can it get than that? He knows the plans that He has for us. That means He has a plan for us!!! And, His plans are to prosper us... and not to harm us... and to give us hope and a future!!!"
When I think about that -- it makes me feel like a little kid -- sitting here bubbling up all inside me -- KNOWING -- that Christ-mas is a real deal!!!
So, I'll try to wait and have patience... and hopefully, the right answer will come, when it's time for me to know.
What's strange for me is this: When I first started on the A.A. path to recovery... I could only think that... If there was a God... I thought of the many legitimate reasons that God would not want to have anything to do with me!!! I thank God, that I learned that I'm not-God, so therefore I wouldn't know what God would be like if I did know Him! And, now that I feel as though I know Him... I have so many legitimate reasons to have faith and reliance upon Him.
He has been with me and seen me through to the other side of many BIG problems... and little ones, too!
Today, thanks to many of you... and without you I wouldn't have it... I have a conscious contact with a Loving God... that surpasses my ability to understand Him!