Welcome Gopher! And, thanks for participating on the site. I appreciate you.
If I were having the same experience that you describe... I would consider myself stuck.
What I would do -- is:
1. Read every word from the front cover of the Big Book, up to page 103. Just read it through and don't worry about doing anything during this reading other than to read.
2. Ask myself these two questions:
a. Do I want to quit drinking for good and forever?
b. Am I willing to go to any lenghts to get over my drinking problem?
If I answered "Yes" to both those questions...
Then, I would turn to the front cover of the Big Book, again.
This time I would read every single word -- and look for any and all instructions. Often, they will be preceded with the words like "We must" Or, "If we neglect"; or "We did" ; or "we made" and "we found it helpful".
(that's just a few of them.
The idea is to "thoroughly" follow the instructions.
Then, with each instruction... as I did it... I would examine myself on it, by turning the instructions into questions... that I could ask myself, such as: Did I do this? Did I experience this? If my answer was not "yes"... I would do it again until I got it.
I would do that all the way from the front cover up to page 103.
Then... when that was complete... I would turn to page 83 through 88, daily... and "precisely follow each and every instruction listed" and be sure that I experienced each experience that was listed.
Now, while I was doing the "daily actions" of page 83-88 (doing and not just reading)... I would start reading pages 104 through 164... doing exactly like I did, from the front cover up to page 103.
When that was done... I'd start again at the front cover... and start looking for another alcoholic that I could help to do precisely what I did.
That always works for me and if I ever feel "stuck" ... I know what happened "precisely."
Certain experiences happen as a result of taking each action.
Think of it as a recipe. A formula. Follow it precisely and you'll be cooking up "experiences."
That's what I'd do. I hope that helps.