Hello Cruisin! Welcome to the site. I hope you make yourself feel at home and comfortable here.
I had a similar but different circumstance, once. I had been sober for 5 1/2 months... and celebrated early!
My Ego wouldn't let me go back and identify as a newcomer in the rooms where I had got sober. I figured I'd get 90 days, and then go back, and raise my hand, with an attitude of "Ah, it was no big deal! Just a bump in the road of happy destiny!"
My problem was... I wasn't able to get sober again. Sure, I might stay sober a day (but, I don't remember the day!) but usually it was less than a day... and I got worse and worse.
It wasn't until it was killing me that I became willing do go to any lengths, regardless of what they were... to achieve and maintain sobriety. When I was ready... my ego, my reputation, my career, my business... nor nothing else stood in my way. I was one of the unfortunate ones that had to get honest.
I realize my situation was a lot different than yours... with your 16 years, and your job in the field. That has to be a stressful situation and I'm sure it has tons of conflicts going on in your head. I feel for you. And, I wish you the best in what ever you decide to do.
I have known others in a situation that is more like yours. They shared that it was better for them to go through a temporary period of pain and humiliation that would last a little while... rather than go through a lifetime of risking it all and having to live with their conscience. We're a pretty sensitive bunch, I've been told!!!
I sure don't envy your situation and I hope that someone here on the site will be able to share their experience of when they had a similar situation.
The closest thing I can think of, is a doctor that I once sponsored, that was already on a long probation and could have lost his license to practice, forever.
Eventually, he had to face up and he did lose his medical license and was fired from the hospital. Later on, after about two years sober, he regained his license to practice.
And, in another situation that I'm familiar with -- the ER doc was fired and he lost his license. Later, he regained his license, and then, when he was about seven years sober, he became the Medical Directory of the hospital where he was fired.
I wish you the best. If I can help in any other way -- just let me know and I'd be happy to help.