But most times Im just not sure what His will really is for me. Just when I think I have it all figured out, it changes. And it keeps changing, just like I am in sobriety, as I change, God's will and even my will, change.
Hi everyone, especially newcomers. Sorry I haven't been around for a while, just been really busy.
I just had to reply to the above quote because I have felt the same thing many time. When I learned to live my life 24 hours at a time and stopped trying to control the outcome I found that we're not suppose to be trying to figure out what his will is for us. We work our program one day at a time and live the best possible lives we can. We keep moving forward and things start to happen for us. Our higher power wants us to be happy and fullfilled and that is suppose to change everyday as we enter new experiences and the world around us changes. Think of how awful a life would be if everything were stagnant. It would be pretty compfortable if everything stayed at a point where we found peace and serenity but what would there be to look forward to if life stood still. We are growing everday and to do that we need to have experiences that we don't necessarily like but we learn our lessons as they are given.
Just to update everyone on my situation. Some of you know my husband and I split up a couple of months ago. Well since then I've being trying my best to live one day at a time and trust that everything is exactly as it should be. Well on October 17 my husband decided he wanted what I had and booked himself into a treatment center. He celebrated 1 month of clean time yesterday. I don't know if we will get back together as husband and wife but we have become freinds. We both have learned alot about addiction and codepency. We are also both attending Alnon meetings because we both came from very disfunctional families. We try hard to keep our recovery seperate right now because we are both at different levels of sobriety ( I just celebrated 9 months on Nov 14 and am at step 8 in my step study). I've learned alot about loving detatchment and putting my sobriety 1st. Without that I am nothing to anyone.
I have also been spending alot of time voleneering at the womans recovery centre here and have told my story a few times. Now that was an experience to remember. I was really nervous at first but after I got started and looked out into the faces of these women I saw every emotion I had felt at the beginning of my sobriety. It honestly is a very humbling experience.
Well I have to run now but I will catch up with everyone as soon as my life slows down a bit. I never would have thought that recovery was really a 24 hour job. It really does make a difference when you start giving away what we have recieved from the fellowship of AA. I have 2 sponsee's right now and it certainly has made my problems seem very trivial.
They say that your Higher Power will never give you more than you can handle at any given moment and some days I still live hour to hour but I have the serenity poem to keep me on track.
Talk to you all soon,
HAPPY 24 HOURS